A poem

And it is

And it is painful
And it is unnecessary
And it is failed.
It is stupid, vile, complicated and depressed.

But it is flying
Up above all heads—into the sky and out of motion.

Not repeated, but familiar.
Teaching us one to two.
Three to Four

Past Penelope

I've decided to start blogging-- this time for real.
The only thing that has really been discouraging me from posting frequently are my Past-Penelope posts.
They're pretty embarassing. Middle School was a very painful time and I almost wish it wasn't archived on this world wide web.
I have learned to push it aside though;"Fuck it in a bucket," as my mother would say.

Summer is ending and it has been a very monumental season for both myself and my community of youth peers. A lot of people have left. I miss them all very much, but I am receiving and feeling notions of independence that are very self satisfactory. Does this make any sense? Whatever.
I have accomplished so much this summer-- but at the same time I feel like I neglected it at certain points. I did fulfill a few of my many, many dreams. I finally processed and printed my own photos. I became a super 8 projector pro. I obtained a drum set. I became a better seamstress. I wrote and became a gluten/sugar free woman and lost over 10 pounds. I cut all my hair off. I realized/discovered what gender is, what it feels to be queer and how it feels to be open to all types of people and their trips. I feel like this is a new year. I also feel odd posting all of my thoughts publicly like this, but who really cares.

Things I've been into:

Mod Podge

Rumors by Fleetwood Mac- lucky me I found it today in my fathers massive record collection.

Kraftwerk

Faux Fur

My Love for Selena has been growing and progressing for the past year



<3 Penel



PS- I refuse to get a tumblr.



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IuezNswtRfo

OH MAN

HOLY shit

New Year Blog

What can I say...
My year has been great so far.
I do have goals though.
Here are the listed fewww
Learn how to sew
Do something theatrically
Develop Film
Read a Book
Get Straight A's
Stay a VEG
Get Money

Anyone who would like to help me achieve my goals, hit me up.

http://whatyouseewhenyoudie.ytmnd.com/
I really hope I see this when I die.
Its almost enlightening.
If it were my cat it'd be amazing.
Sister Aimee is still blowing my mind.
I am disappointed in LACHSA's theatre program so far and I hope I'm not alone in this.
The library is amazing again to me.

Its been a LONG time

Its been a long time since I've used this here blog.
I think its about time I started it up again because I am starting a new life, with high school and all.
LACHSA is okay I guess.
Its like CSSSA but with math class and the seconds are a lot slower here.
Can't tell if I like it quite that much yet.
But hey, you can't have it all.
My mom is really pissed off at the whole fam bam righ now.
The only thing I can really do is sit here listen to elliott smith and wait for my dad to come home from trader joes and save me and my sister.

ANYWAY.
Lets talk about lately in thee more general sense.
I've been doing a lot of research about Sister Aimee. I'm not that big on religion but she is a pretty cool, crazy, fucked up person. I've also been biking around the block and I recently went to my first midnite ride. It was very cool, very cool.
I need new shoes. Too bad I have no money.
Neither does anyone who breathes and sleeps and eats in my house.
I'm kinda scared bloggy.
I've been thinking about college and how I'm even gonna get he money to go.
Or if I'm even going....

Its been a long time

AHHHHHHH.
I have started schoool.
Already a month.

God
Everyone at school is ugly.
No cute boys.
Juts good friends.
Cat Power is like the woman John Lennon.

I just saw the light go on.
I am going to eat some chicken.